Posts tagged Letting go

I can feel my heart floating across skies

I used to know its place was by your side

I used to believe you can never be a face I can forget

But as time heals all wounds

It brushes off faith

And I am letting you go

I am ready to move on with my life.

But at the same time, I am afraid to forget you.

Once I do, once I have unloved you, you’d just be a face in the crowd. I’d forget how beautiful, how wonderful you were in my eyes.

No matter how subtle, I think that’s the saddest thing.. when something that meant everything starts to mean nothing.

Written on March 11, 2012

Very rarely this happens; When someone finally speaks up and tells the other person, this should stop and both accept without hatred, without apprehension. There was no apparent reason to separate, but the foundation of everything, love and faith, unfortunately have lost their course.

Many months ago, I asked him if he was sure I was the one. I decided to forget the answer’s form… yet I never forgot its substance… It hurt to finally confirm that, even if at the back of my mind, I knew it all along.

He knew I had my own plans, I knew his plans. And although we could, we chose not to talk on ways we could compromise. I knew he’d push through his with or without me. He knew I’d push through mine even if it means I would have to lose him. We considered our choices + us mutually exclusive; I guess in our minds this is a fight that together we could not win… Or maybe, tamad na lang kami to even make a difference.

I don’t know what lacked, but maybe, just maybe, what lacked was love.

I would love to see him push through marrying in the temple with a beautiful girl, eventually have the cutest, healthiest kids. Everyday, I wish him the best.

He was kind, very patient and he always made me feel that I am worth every bit of his trust and confidence until the very end.

I am grateful to have met him.